When I came to jaywalker for a final intervention Lois said if I didn’t check in somewhere I was going to die, I believed her. I checked in that day. I got lucky. The next day we went skiing in 17 inches of fresh powder. I remember feeling awful skiing that day but was fighting for my life. But one of my best friends bought me a slice of pizza and a vitamin water which made me feel better…I threw it up about thirty minutes later because I was detoxing so bad but I felt better. Emotionally. I was terrified were my disease took me. The friends who I made the first time all asked me “you need to find out why you are getting sober.” I thought about it the whole time I was there. Jaywalker showed me how to have fun in sobriety. But what I was mainly grateful for, was how jaywalker showed me how powerless and unmanageable my life was in my active addiction. I did a lot of step one assignments that I presented to my group and got more doses of humility than I was expecting.
The biggest struggle I encountered was at about 2 and a half years sober. I decided to move to California for a new job as a case manager at an amazing treatment program. Two weeks before I left, I lost my dad to suicide. I was devastated. So in the span of one month I moved in with my girlfriend at the time in California, lost my dad and started a new job. Not to mention trying to make new friends in an AA community I was unfamiliar with. I quickly made friends that reminded me of the ones in Carbondale. It was a struggle but I relied on my 12 step program to get through it. About six months ago I decided to carry on my fathers legacy by opening up a sober living in his honor. When I was getting sober and giving my dad positive updates about my life he would always tell me to “Stay The Course” so that’s what I called my sober living. Now I have two homes in Orange County. My life is full of joy, friends, family, fun and a higher power I can pray too. These are the reasons why I stay and am sober today. I love the life I live today. Jaywalker and Carbondale will always be home.
As Chief Executive Officer Bill provides leadership and manage all day-to-day operations of Jaywalker Lodge, an extended care residential addiction treatment program for adult men.